But I will do my best (who knows I may even end up posting on time, just as a way to procrastinate) and this is my first post. I'm a little uneasy about posting this, because this experience was in no way what I expected (or hoped) it would be.
So a friend of mine is a part of a youth organisation and mentioned that I might enjoy coming to one of their camps as a staff member. I jumped at the chance to be involved - my friend has constantly raved about this organisation and I was really keen to become involved.
So I went to the training sessions and no-one really spoke to me, which was a bit upsetting, but I just put it down to people being a bit shy and was sure that it would be different on the camp.
It wasn't.
I have never felt so excluded in my life. I mean, there have always been cool kids who didn't want anything to do with anyone else, but this camp was *all* cool kids. Cool kids who were all really good friends and weren't in any way interested in making new friends. Cool kids who barely acknowledged you existed, even when you tried to talk to them. Cool kids who would break up a conversation if you tried to join them, citing some kind of job they had to do, only to reform in a different location moments later.
The only redeeming factor was that by the third day, one of the other staff members seemed to cotton on and started to try to include me, but by that stage, after three days of being ignored and excluded, it was too little, too late.
Sorry that this post isn't more cheerful. I assure you, though, that this experience was far, far, far more disappointing for me than I can adequately express here.
Until I next need to procrastinate
-L
